I hate him / I hate him not....

I hate that I hate him;

I hate that he still sneaks into my mind;

I hate when a stranger has his name & I immediately think of him;

I hate that I dream of him;

I hate that after all this time, I still can't hear a certain song w/o his memory attached;

I hate that we didn't make it work;

I hate that he still thinks it's ok to try to contact me whenever the mood strikes;

I hate that there will always be a part of me that loves him......